Mystery of a Broken Heart

A poem for this day. 
Henry David Thoreau
Let us agree

for now

that we will not say

the breaking

makes us stronger

or that it is better

to have this pain

than to have done

without this love.
Let us promise

we will not

tell ourselves

time will heal

the wound,

when every day

our waking

opens it anew.
Perhaps for now

it can be enough

to simply marvel

at the mystery

of how a heart

so broken

can go on beating,

as if it were made

for precisely this—
as if it knows

the only cure for love

is more of it,
as if it sees

the heart’s sole remedy

for breaking

is to love still,
as if it trusts

that its own

persistent pulse

is the rhythm

of a blessing

we cannot

begin to fathom

but will save us


A Tribute to My Brother

Here we go again Matino family. Saying good-bye to another larger than life family member. In a blink of an eye everything changes and nothing will ever be the same at a family gathering. Damn that empty chair. Just breathe.


My brother Charlie has always been the life of the party. Great dancer and story teller he always had us out on the floor and laughing. Generous of time, energy and his wallet he welcomed all he knew into his circle. In addition to his wife and kids, no one loved him more than his brothers, nieces, nephews, grandchildren, friends, neighbors….oh, wait-EVERYBODY loved Charlie.


My kids especially adored him. William looked up to the guy who served his country in the National Guard and Caitlin always felt the love in his presence. On our visits to his home William relished the nights he and Charlie would stay up late watching horse races and betting on the trotters.

My brother never went to college, but through back breaking work as a garbage man built a successful business with my dad. He worked hard for his family and never hesitated to  share his success with whoever was in need. His generous spirit lives on in his loving and caring wife, Evelyn, and his amazing sons Jay and Michael.


Until we meet again big brother. I will always love you and thank you for all you did to care for my family and make me a better person. No sister has ever felt more loved.


Food Fight Write 2015 Bloggers’ Summit


Along with Kansas City Steaks the Saucy Mama Team sponsored a bloggers’ challenge cook-off

My blogging schedule is a bit off kilter due to traveling a bunch in the month of November. Bare with me as I hope to get back on track to my usual Sunday posts come December. In the mean time check out this photomontage of my recent blogger escapades. Here is a view of the 3 day 2015 Food Fight Write Bloggers’ Summit starting with a fabulous media tour and lunch with Shamu and friends at Seaworld.


We learned lots of fun facts about how well cared for these beautiful animals are. How about some fresh ground organic avocado for the aardvark? We should all eat so healthy.

Naturally, we did eat well. Not only an abundant taste of the park at Seaworld, but also some very special locally grown offerings from My Yard Farm including a fresh picked spicy micro green salad featuring their juicy heirloom tomatoes. I am looking forward to growing my own come Spring.


Happy Egg Co and Tuttorosso tomatoes started us off with breakfast one morning while later that day we grilled up some fabulous filet mignon courtesy of Kansas City Steaks. We also sampled several flavorful Saucy Mama products in preparation for a blogger throw-down. More about that later.

IMG_7793Always up for a good hayride, Long and Scott Farms welcomed us with open arms and interesting details about how to grow sweet corn and cucumbers. They also feature a giant 7-acre “Salute to our Armed Forces” corn maze. Automatically, I love them.


Next up on the schedule (are you tired yet) is a visit to one of Orlando’s premiere destinations,  The Champions’ Gate Resort for Inspired Home workshops. This is a blogger’s paradise of collaboration and learning (think periscope, instagram and video) in addition to a mix and mingling of food, lifestyle and brand influencing.


This is how a real brand influencer does it. So inspiring and professional and gets me right into the holiday spirit.

The summit culminated in The Bloggers’ Challenge giving each participant a chance to experience first hand the reality of cooking competition. How to develop a recipe and orientation to the Kenmore Pro kitchen arena were hot topics as well as tips on timing, presentation and judging. While a few of us were already competitive cooks most of the bloggers were not. It was a wonderful way for them to gain insight into this growing world of food sport and as influencers maybe encourage brands to sponsor competitive cooks just like Nike might endorse a pro athlete. Sign me up! And check out my instagram @goodgriefcook to see some fun gadgets received in my Inspired Home swag bag.


Congratulations to my friends, Cho Wut Yee who took third and Rebecka Evans who took first in their first ever cooking competition. So proud of you ladies. ~Photo by Rebecka.